Wednesday, July 1, 2009

I wish I could see just a little....wouldn't that be NICE!!!

5 years ago today is the last time that I heard Brandon's precious voice....right before he was intubated for his "procedure"...he said..."I LOVE YOU MOM...I'll see you in a little bit", and then gave me a kiss.

Oh how I miss that voice, those kisses, the smiles, personality, and all that encompass Brandon. When my heart hurts like this, I wish God would let me see just a little glimpse into Heaven and see Brandon...but he knows me so well, that just one glimpse would never be enough. I will always want more.

Today is a one of those days of forcing myself to keep the ETERNAL PERSPECTIVE in front of my eyes and heart and keeping it from being clouded from this temporary perspective. Sometimes that is just so tiring...and other times...well, it's do-able. Just needed to "release" for a moment.

But I still PRAISE my God.....he is ever FAITHFUL.
He turned the sea into dry land; they went through the flood on foot; there did we rejoice in him ~ Psalm 66:6..........I PURPOSE TO REJOICE!

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Getting Through

Getting through these days can be tough sometimes. And others...well not so bad. As I said, I guess this will be a FOREVER thing. I mean, how can't it. One of my sons is in Heaven and not here. But...I know he is in a place that is exceedingly abundantly above all that we could ask or think...and that God's ways are higher than ours. But you get the picture at times.

But you know....I do have JOY, and I know that the JOY of the LORD is my STRENGTH...and God has been so faithful with many new adventures for us. He has continued to show his love through other people and through this next new adventure that he is taking our family on....I promise to reveal more when the time is right. But I can say that I am super excited...and I know and feel that Brandon will have a hand in this as well. I can just imagine the look on his face, and the words he would tell me, Steve, Jordan, & Seth. And then of course he would flash that beautiful smile. Oh how I miss him, but I PRAISE God for my life....would not trade it for anything in the world!


Be of good courage, and he shall strengthen your heart,....Psalm 31:24