Deep Breath ~ trying to breathe!

I have so many good things to post and I am so truly thankful for...but today...well, that is just not what is swirling around fully in my mind. I definitely know that I am to bring ALL thoughts captive unto God...and boy am I trying, just wish it was easier for those emotions of my heart to get there when things are hard.

Yes I know that I can look back and see that in some hard times, it has been easy for me to change the emotions of my heart. But today is not one of those days. I promise a change though...just like I know the sun will rise in the east...God WILL show me the path, give me hope & courage...and I KNOW that he See's me...and then I can take a deep breath, exhale...and continue on.....
The Message (MSG)

Psalm 34:18 ~ The Message
If your heart is broken, you'll find God right there; if you're kicked in the gut, he'll help you catch your breath

Getting it off my chest

Why is it when a "little tiff" occurs between you and your "loving" husband...it is so much easier to just jump in with both feet and say to yourself ..."oh it's on now"! Speaking for myself of course, cause I just know that all of you other fine Christian ladies never experience this.

And then, when silence enters (because you are just too mad to talk to each other), is usually when I realize that I have let the enemy get a foothold. Uuuuugh! I just hate that! Every morning I say to my self.."Dawn...this is the day, that you really are going to be that Proverbs Woman. You are going to be that sweet spirit in tone and attitude in your home. You will be the loving helpmate that your hard working Godly patient (and boy is he) husband deserves". Some days I actually achieve that..and how wonderful those days are. But yesterday was not one of them.

Even in the gentle reminders from the Lord.....my stubbornness still had a "stronghold" over me. And then when I saw said sweet, patient, Godly husband asleep in the living room (cause you know he didn't want to deal with me)...I sent him a text, knowing that he would get it in the morning when he turned on his work phone.

So yaaay for technology, but it would have made things so much more pleasant if it had come from my mouth (even though it was still from my heart). So as you see........I still got A LOT of work to do. And Steve would probably say..."please pray, for my sometimes very extremely emotional, all over the place, makin' no sense wife" (who loves him dearly)!

I will strive to be that Proverbs Woman today!!! Cause that is what God created me for!