So yeah, God has me stretching in area's that I wasn't quite prepared for. One is a little area that I had put away out of reach almost 7 years ago. That is my Bible. Yes I have used other's in these last 7 years....Brandon's mostly, but I sent that along for the ride to California with Jordan (how cool is that to think about), my "Serendipity Bible" that was a gift from my mom years ago, Steve's Bible, one of Brandon's other Bible's (the teenager's edition), and yes I even looked at purchasing a new one. BUT GOD....he always has these other plans...funny, he never thinks to ask me ahead of time (smile ~ sometimes). Anyway, since December I have been hearing the word "BALANCE" from him. So I have been striving to achieve that. And just when I thought I was making the slightest of progress....I heard him tell me to go back to MY BIBLE. It would seem that it would be no big deal, but in my heart it has been. You see this is a book so worn, and even torn with years of searching, seeking & believing. There are prayers written on those pages, dates of those prayers, and some dates of answered prayers. Inside there are drawings by Brandon, Jordan & Seth through the years...notes from them, from Steve and from other sweet people. There are questions to God on how I was to pray for Brandon, proclamations made by me of what I would pray over my family. Standing on promises and then there comes the words, thoughts, and desperate prayers during the summer months of 2004. And then when August 3, 2004 happened...I could not pick that Bible up again. I shoved it on a shelf...never to open again. Until now....
When I took that big breath, and opened it up I saw those same things (a time capsule), but God is also showing me that although my perspective was different then...he did in fact answer all my prayers, see all my notes, and is still working to the good of me...because I love him. I do not yet know why he has chosen "now" as the time for me to go back to using this Bible...but because he is faithful, and I TRUST...I know that it is for my utmost best. And I am fine with that.
3 comments:
As I sit here with tears in my eyes, there is a smile upon my face. What a gift, a blessing to return to your Bible. It was there waiting for you all along and God showed you the very moment in which you were to pick it up once again.
I pray that you continue to find that balance you're in search of. He'll show you balance, Dawn. It's coming. It is.
Sarah Jester
So thankful that God speaks, and you listen. His gift to you, in His timing, sounds perfect. I am thankful for your faith, and for God's great love for all of us. May 2011 be filled with such moments of inspiration and assurance of God's love.
Thank you for your continued prayers - you are so generous!
Thanks Dawn for listening to the Lord as He speaks to your heart. Thank you for reaching out in obedience and opening your "shelved" Bible, for reading past notes, and calling....God's love exudes from this story....I am so thankful!!!
You are the voice I needed to be reconnected with as you have walked this journey through Brandon's homegoing. Now you can help me walk our journey as we adjust to Kyndall's recent death.
I stand amazed at the overwhelming love God has shown in His timing, it is evidence that He is intimately involved in our lives as we let Him work. It's so good to be reconnected....thanks for your words of wisdom, I so appreciate our conversations.
Love and prayers,
Gwen Lowe
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