UUUUUGH ! :-(

Had a dream last night that was so real, wish it were true.  But I have to say...today, remembering it....HURTS REALLY BAD.

I still HATE this

Stands to Reason

I really miss Brandon EVERYDAY....but obviously it stands to reason that holidays, birthday's, ect......IT STINGS even more.

I am so Thankful for many things though. I'll write about them another day.

I know that I am on the road that God planned and purposed...but I am REALLY struggling emotionally and feeling like "am I doing this right"? I MISS BRANDON SO MUCH!!!

Adjusting well

The little precious ones are adjusting well...so are we. I was surprised though that different "waves of emotions" rush over me in missing Brandon so much. I am so glad that these little ones are here but I have been blindsided at times by how fresh that pain is again. I know though that these little ones were placed here purposely, and it is also a little funny to think that in so many ways....if Brandon could have said..."OK God...my mom finally listened...can you give my family these 2 little ones that need them so much, and my family needs them too"....I can only imagine!

Thank you all for your continued prayers for them and for us!

5 Years

Desperately seeking the face and presence of God. Really struggling right now, but I know that God is FAITHFUL, and that I don't ever want to let go, and I KNOW that he most definitely will NEVER LET GO! I know that God will show up in a very special way for our CELEBRATE BRANDON DAY. Looking forward to seeing what God has for us and our hearts :-)

Sometimes I just wish I could see and know more.

Sums it up

Just when I think..."I can breathe, I'm doing good"....I have a day, very much like TODAY. I MISS BRANDON SOOOOOOOOO MUCH! Yep....I am HOMESICK for HIM!