Getting Emotional

Getting so emotional with:

1.  Summer closing (way to FAST)
2.  Seth getting ready for his freshman year at the University of Delaware (REALLY FAST)
3.  Jordan getting ready to head back to California (this past year with him home...again TOO FAST)
4.  8 years ago today last day I heard Brandon's voice when he said..."I LOVE you, I'll see you in a little bit"
5.  August 3rd...8 FULL years of him being GONE! (FASTER & SLOWER than I can even comprehend)

Good things:
1.  Seth gettting ready for freshman year at UofD ~ So PROUD of him, exicted for his next new chapter!
2.  Jordan getting ready to head back to California ~ So PROUD of him, excited for his next adventure!
3.  Jedidiah getting ready to start 1st grade ~ SO PROUD of all that he has accomplished!

4.  Desi is 4 ~ a very sweet, but also sassy DAUGHTER who loves to sing and dance!
5.  August 3rd ~ Celebrate Brandon Day ~ 8 FULL years of him being HEALED & living with JESUS!!!
6.  August 13th ~ Seth's Eagle Scout Ceremony ~ VERY PROUD of this accomplishment
7.  August 15th ~ 1 FULL (and I do mean FULL) year of completed adoption of Jedidiah & Desi!!!
8.  August 19th ~ 3 FULL years (again...FULL) that Jedidiah & Desi first walked into our/their home!!!


Wow ~ I am a wreck good/sad, but GOD is ALWAYS FAITHFUL.  Sometimes I just have to really press hard to get my heart to KNOW IT & FEEL IT!!!  But even still...God is always the same, and that helps me through the tears of joy or sadness.

Last Days of High School

May 14-18, 2012 ~ Seth's last week of HIGH SCHOOL....YIKES! 

This came way to fast!  It is so weird how fast those last 4 years of school go by.  I can remember each freshman year (Brandon, Jordan, & Seth) and how much I thoroughly enjoyed everything they were involved in, and their friends.  I guess that is a part of what makes it go by so fast.  BUT, I guess I get to do it all over again with Jedidiah & Desi!  I just pray for the energy level of me to be the same!

Senior Awards Night

AP Honors Math Award!!!

Last Band Concert

He did Dance Team for Senior Year! 

Ms Boone we LOVE you & will MISS YOU!

Senior Cruise!!!

Shirts OFF now!

Carol Argo & "LEECH BABY" :-)



Lincoln Church Celebrates the Graduates!
Ethan, Haley, Seth & Jesse (he had to work)





Seth getting anointed and prayed for by Carol, & Jack & Karen Fitzgerald.
They have all watched Seth grow from infancy & have been very important as some of the people that have Sown into Seth's life Spiritually!

 So glad you had fun Seth & did what your brothers Brandon & Jordan told you to do...."MAKE THE MOST OF THIS TIME"!

Getting Emotional

Seth's Senior Year....

I have been emotional all year, but I have to say.....it is really gearing up now.  This next month and a half are going to go by so fast, and I just can't beleive it.  So yeah....this girl is emotional!  But finding JOY also!  More to come. :-)

I know that I am on the road that God planned and purposed...but I am REALLY struggling emotionally and feeling like "am I doing this right"? I MISS BRANDON SO MUCH!!!

Roller Coaster ~ What's your ride?

That pretty much sums up the feelings that go on in this life of mine. Although it is a life I LOVE so much......there are the obvious that I would change.....BRANDON HERE instead of waiting for us in Heaven, more consistency in my life, more discipline with my precious time with God (I LOVE him so much for his Patience with me), and to ALWAYS keep that ETERNAL VIEW!

But even with all that said...I still have no real regrets. There are many people I can thank for that. First my Sweet husband Steve....I thank him that I have never had to work full time. That we were always in agreement with me being home with the kids. And all of those memories of them are so priceless. Especially in the here and now. 100 years would have never been enough with Brandon here on this earth, but the times we did have are irreplaceable! And being with Jordan and Seth still is so special to me. Even though they are at an age where they don't "need" me so much, but I'd like to think that they "want" me there (smile). And my mom for teaching me just how to LOVE my children, my sister for being my BEST friend, and my brother for letting me work for him but still be "bossy" with him (laugh), and all of my family and friends for always being there for me!

Emotions are so funny and perplexing....I have been in a struggle in the past few days. A little bit like one of the lyrics in that first song on my playlist that I can DEFINITELY relate to at times........"I have no fear of drowning, it's the breathing that's taking all this work". I have been missing Brandon, missing Jordan, and missing the "young" Seth. Missing all 3 of their baby times. Realizing that unless it is a vacation or summer break...Jordan will no longer really live full time with us. That can make me cry, even though I am so proud of him and know that this is a normal step. But still, it makes my heart sad.

And then there is today.....I am full of anticipation. Excitement for what is to come in my life. SUPER EXCITED that on the 18th we will be picking up Jordan from the airport and then head to Disney. I so can't wait to HUG & BUG him (smile)! Eager anticipation on what God has in store for me individually, for me and Steve together, and for his plans and purposes in my children's lives. I am so glad that God is LARGE and IN CHARGE......that he gave me my family, that he knows me from the inside out, that he knows the end from the beginning, and that through it all......HE WILL NEVER LEAVE ME!

I LOVE YOU GOD!