Brandon's Birthday!!!

Brandon would be 25 today..BUT he is happy healed and abundantly well with his Saviour...and oh yeah...just waiting for us....I can just hear him say.."I told you I would see you in a little bit...come check this out"....aaaah, just a heartbeat away ♥






I wonder what days are like in Heaven....I would suppose it is a MASSIVE CELEBRATION and AWESOME WORSHIP at all times.



I long for that day, but I have also come to realize that I CAN have that here in the "waiting" also.






I believe that it is even more vital to remember that on those days that are so very hard. That this "veil between here and Heaven", is so very thin...and that if we just "press in" we can hear, feel, and smell Heaven, and most importantly feel the very presence and Love of the one who loves us most, and who knew what road we would be called to walk. I believe that God desires for us to just hold onto him so tightly that the "dark places" get pushed farther and farther away. But even in our "human condition"...he is still there holding us tightly, and for me...whispering..."come on...hang on just a little longer, I have so much for you to do, you are more than capable, and all is MORE than okay with your son. The son I gave you, and you him".I love when God whispers in my ear and touches my heart...especially the hard days. And I can always count on him to make himself so very real to me. Thank you God for giving me one of my precious children 25 years ago today....I know he is having fun, and making people laugh...and I will continue to press on, smile, and wait.

~ One of Brandon's FAVORITE Scriptures ~ Philippians 1:21
For to me, living means living for Christ, and dying is even better

Brandon's Birthday

Today is Brandon's Birthday. It is his 24th earthly Birthday, but his 5th Heavenly one. I am not quite sure why....but numbers along with the time really get me. I think back on the 5 years he has been gone, 5 birthdays have passed. It makes me think of him starting kindergarten. How at the time, those 5 years didn't seem so confusing with time flying by or screeching to an un-breathable halt. I wonder why that is. That everything is filtered through the "before" and "after".

I do know that Brandon would not want me to be in this small pit that I find myself in today. When he was here, he was all about living and having as much fun as his body would allow him. So if that is the way he was here....I know that he truly is in a place that is "exceedingly and abundantly above all that we could ask or think".

I PRAISE God that he chose me to be Brandon's momma. The one to be there to see his first breath and his last. The one who got to laugh with him, teach him, help him, raise him, and insure his eternity. Of course there were many others who got that privilege as well. And for that I am thankful too.

Happy Birthday Brandon ~ You and your brothers have made me the mom that God formed me to be!