3,650 days

5,256,000 hours
10 years

Since I heard your voice telling me I LOVE YOU, I WILL SEE YOU IN A LITTLE WHILE.  At times, it still feels like yesterday when you were telling me that and holding my hand as you were drifting off to sleep for another "procedure".  Sometimes those many days, hours, and years can feel so suffocating.  It can be so hard for my earthly mind to comprehend heavenly "stuff".  But GOD!!! 

He is still faithful to make all things work together for my good, and those suffocating moments do pass quickly at times.  And those times they don't....well God gets me through it.  Even in all this missing you, wondering what you would look like and what you would be doing....there has been A LOT of good stuff A LOT of living, and A LOT of LOVING!!!

For right now, I will keep counting time (God made me that way), keep living, keep loving, keep hoping, keep believing
and keep HAVING FAITH!

I love and miss you my sweet silly 1st born son!
xxooxxooxxooxxooxxoo

Happy Birthday!!!

I am so behind on updates...updates that I have tried to PURPOSE to write!  BUT...today's post will go on for sure!

Today is Steve's BIRTHDAY!!!
Happy Birthday Sweetie.  I am so thankful for this man.  He is a man of God that remembers to pray for me when I need it (most of the time), and pray for me when my ATTITUDE needs it!  He is a HUGE help around the house, helpful with the kids (especially the "littles").  Adores his children and works hard to provide for his family.

He knows just what to say (most of the time) when I am in full FREAK OUT mode (rarely happens...HA!).  The four simple words I really need to hear....EVERYTHING WILL BE OKAY. 

Thank you Steve for being who you are...I LOVE YOU!

I want; I desire

Sitting here and reflecting on my 5 beautiful children, and the honor and privilege I have at being "their mom", there are some things that I so desire and want for them.

Obviously the top priority is their salvation and ETERNAL life, and YES I am assured of that. All 5 of them!!!! I desire for them to be happy and healthy in life, to love what they do, and do what they love. To always feel loved by me, their dad, each other, and their future spouses. To always know their identity in Christ, and the person that God created them to be. (so glad I get to help them on this part of their journey). For them to see themselves and abilities the way God sees them. What CONFIDENCE they will hold with that!

For them to remain close and bonded with each other and their family. To be there for each other through the journey of life. To build on their own special relationships with each other, and then with each other's families. To be those FAVORITE Uncles and an Aunt. Of course, she will lovingly share her Aunt role with her brother's wives, and they will gladly accept her prince of a husband! For their children to be so close with each other and their cousins. Yes...just the way it should be!

So yeah, among all of the other things I "may want"....THIS IS THE BEST!!!

I LOVE YOU Brandon, Jordan, Seth, Jedidiah & Desi!

It was FUN***

This Guy!!!

I LOVE him so very much! I love how hard he works for our family, how he wisely budgets our money, how he desires to be the man God called him to be, how he "puts up with my moods", how he loves our children. But most of all today...how when I was in such a "twisted up" mood, and feeling angry....he listend and then said..."do you want me to pray for you". WOW! He changed my atmosphere immediately, and spoke JOY into my heart, and PEACE into my life! I LOVE YOU STEVE, and THANK YOU GOD for my TREASURE!

Beautiful!!!!

Beautiful One Conference!!! ♥.....thank you to my Mighty Man of God Steve for taking on the business of our home, especially with the two littles, for honoring me with this time, and for learning to do a little girls hair! You are awesome & I LOVE LOVE LOVE You!
My family is good!

Today

Jordan is home, for now, but back to Cali it will be :-), Seth is almost finished with school...YAAY SUMMER....Little Helper Boy is all better from raging ear infection...the Princess is 2 TODAY!!! Brandon is healed and happy in HEAVEN...waiting for us...And I LOVE MY HUSBAND...All is well in my heart and world TODAY!

I LOVE this MAN!!!

Hitting The Road

We are gearing up to hit the road early tomorrow morning and head south for my sister Katie's Wedding! So Excited! Also, because the weather here has been lousy for almost 2 weeks straight of rain and only slight warm weather. Today feels like early April with rainy and cool temps. I am looking forward to the warmer weather. I think wedding day is supposed to be sunny and 90! Yaaay! So when we get back....there will be many wedding photo's and fun to post!

Leaving with a Scripture:

Genesis 2:24 ~ The Message

The Man said, "Finally! Bone of my bone, flesh of my flesh! Name her Woman for she
was made from Man." Therefore a man leaves his father and mother and embraces his
wife. They become one flesh.

Steve's Birthday!!!

Today is my Sweetie's Birthday. We have been married for 21 years, and today will be the 22nd Birthday opportunity to make/or buy him a CHEESECAKE. Yes Steve loves his cheesecake...thing is, so do I, and so does Jordan...so really not sure who gets to savor more of it. The Birthday Boy, Jordan, or me! But we share. :-)

I am so happy that God strategically placed us together. That our path was known by him, and he had those paths connect. I can not imagine anyone else who I would want to ride this roller coaster of life with....even in the times that one or the other is wanting to "tip that roller coaster"...hey, we are both pretty headstrong!.

So I wish a very Happy Birthday to one of the LOVES OF MY LIFE!

DAWN LOVES STEVE ~ xxooxxooxxoo

Jordan is almost HOME!!!

My baby is on his way..........he is in the air over our beautful country, and soon to be back in his momma's arms!!!!!!!

Thank you again God for my family! I LOVE THEM SO MUCH!

So I got it right....sort of, kind of...

This goes with my post from last week (Getting Off My Chest).

Well Steve has been sick for going on day #4 now. Earlier this morning as I was going about my morning duties, I was getting annoyed, and "short" with Steve. After I left the house, I then became just plain mad (after all - how dare he really be sick). After getting to work, calming down, taking time to pray and just listen...I took notice on God's gentle nudging. Soooooo, picked up the phone and called home. BUT because I was still in that fleshly battle, I asked a few questions and then hung up! "Dawn...you are MISSING IT....this is NOT the reason for your call, now settle down and GET IT RIGHT".
So, I turned right around, picked up the phone, took a deep breath and asked Steve to forgive me for not using loving words or tone, and could I pray for him. As most always, he immediately forgave me, and we had a wonderful opportunity for prayer.

AND.....I didn't have to let the whole day go by on a bad mood, and Steve could then just rest comfortably at home and "soak in the Lord's presence" without hard feelings.

Thank you God for never giving up on me, and for helping me to "GET IT RIGHT" early!

So getting better....a little

Found this song (the first one on my playlist)...that I really LOVE! Still in the midst of one of those days, but God is always FAITHFUL! He loves me that much! I hope that does not sound conceited, but God tells us that & he proved that to us through Jesus. We all need to GRAB HOLD and accept that. And you know....just in typing this, well....feeling still a little better. The JOY of the LORD is MY STRENGTH & SONG! I LOVE my life!

~ On another, still not ready to share note....Steve & I are still intently praying on something that God spoke to my heart about this time last year. Just waiting for God to move in this, and to always direct us! I am just trying NOT to be inpatient, and for those of you who know me...you know that can be hard!